Nursery!!!

I worked on Baby E's nursery today!!! It was the best feeling ever! I really did not have a chance to give Eva a proper nursery full of decorations and such like she has now(big girl room)...since she shared a room with others and moved rooms quite often. But it was sooooo much fun! I can't wait until it is all done and there is a sweet baby girl sleeping in it!!!

People have been just amazing helping us get to FL. We have had a few people sponsor or trip...which is awesome, since I just cannot afford that kind of money right now! Praise God for those who are called by him!

Hubby and I leave on Thursday and fly home on Friday with baby girl!!!! I borrowed a baby sling from a friend for the airport and all the walking and stuff. Should be a great bonding time! :)

I am just so very excited!!!!! We finally get to bring home our baby girl after 9 months of waiting. And then after just 90 days....she will be ours!

Ooooooohhhhhhh....and bio mom is pregnant again! I don't know any details. So we will just have to wait and see what happens with this little one!! Prayers for him, please!!!!

I am getting my baby girl!!!!!!!!
Jemmers :)

My baby is coming HOME!!!! *Updated*

I just recieved word this evening, via e-mail, that the court has granted that Elise be moved to OH with us!!!!!!!!

I will get more details tomorrow!!!!!

PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!!

The sisters will be together!!!!!

Jemmers :)

**We have agreed to sign a document stating that we will have yearly contact with the foster family. I will e-mail once a year or whenever with updates and pictures. I am sure I will do more. I don't want them to feel like I just took her and that was it! I know that feeling.....and it sucks! Thank you for praying for them!**

September 23rd!

First, I have to say, that I am not offended by any comment I may receive in regards to our attempt to adopt Eva's sister. I understand that this is a delicate situation (believe me...I understand!) and that there is so much emotion involved. But I will not apologize for how I feel! I honestly believe that Teresa belongs with her sister here in OH. And I have left it all up to God...trying to not get too involved and pretty much just mess everything up! If He wants her here, then that is where she shall be.

And our final court hearing is September 23rd at 1:30pm to decide just that! Where legally she should be. This is not an evidentuary hearing. It is just to see what the law says and if the foster parents have any rights to refuse the removal of this little girl. So I am praying God's will alone!!!!

Let's talk about the foster parents for a few minutes. I love these parents. I have not met them personally, and have only spoken to them once. And that did not go well. But I know that they love this little girl. And they have taken good care of her. And I know that their hearts are breaking at the possibility of loosing their only "child". My heart breaks for them!!!! And I pray that God comforts them and brings them peace and blessings beyond comprehension.

I know that there are adoptive parents out there that have children with siblings that they are not with. And that is ok. But Eva only has one sibling at the moment. And if there are more, I will try to keep them all together. As much as possible.

I am not saying that I feel that I deserve this child. I am only saying that the girls deserve to grow up together and have each other. And even if she does not come here....I will do my absolute best to make sure that they still have each other!

I love my daughter.....and I love her sister. With my whole heart!
Jemmers :)

We are getting closer.....

And it is getting harder!!!!!!!!

How are you supposed to fight for a child when no one will listen to you and have already made up their minds. Based on what??????? Cost??? Bonding???? Does anyone care that there are two little girls out there that cannot be with their bio parents and need each other????? They are their family!!!!!!!! Not me!!! Not the foster family!!!! But Eva and Elise (Teresa). This is who all of this is about!!!!!

Why am I the only one who can see this?????

Jemmers

Not much to bring...

Things have been super crazy around here. My father-in-law passed away a few weeks ago. The cancer had spread so fast that he was gone within a week of reaching the cancer hospital. I am still a mess from it all. Just way too much to process. Just thinking about the small things make me break into fits of blubbering sobs. And he was not even my dad......but he was.

My husband seems to be doing ok. But I know he is dying inside from the grief! Watching him talk about his dad at the funeral made me so very proud that he was my husband. Both him and his dad are GREAT men!

I will always remember you......my dear sweet second daddy!

Jemmers :)

Treasure Hunt!

I went to work today already defeated. Stress has taken over my entire being. I have been in tears most of the day! I had hurt my foot somehow and the pain was almost unbearable. I was in constant conversation with the Lord asking how I can continue!

I was walking back to the fitting room when these 3 older ladies came up to me and asked if I was Jennifer. They were looking for me! I asked them if I could help them find something. They continued to tell me they were on a treasure hunt. They had a list and I was on it! God told them to go to Target and find Jennifer. She needed prayer! I was stunned! They asked if there was anything that I needed prayer for...and I began to tell them that I have been struggling financially and I have been stressed out! They agreed to pray for that. Then one of the ladies asked if there was anything physical!!!! I told them that YESSSSS!!!!!!!....my foot was hurting so much and I could barely walk! They asked me if I had been limping.....and I told them yes! I had been all day! The one lady looked at the others and said, "Well that is why we wrote limp on our list!"

SERIOUSLY?????!!!!!!!

And can I tell you that my foot pain was GONE 20 min after they had left! As well as the heaviness on my heart!

But as they were leaving I told them thank you and they hugged me! I told them to enjoy the rest of their hunt! They looked at me and said...."Jennifer, YOU are the treasure! And God loves you! You were fearfully and wonderfully made!"

I was sent 3 angels today. And they knew my name!
Thank you Father.......thank you!
Jemmers :)

Overwhelmed and under paid!

I have been super quiet! I know...so not me! But there has been soooo much going on!

First, we found out less than a month ago that my Father-in-law has stomach cancer. He has waited 2 weeks to be seen by the cancer center in our town, just do a few blood tests and sent home to wait another week for more testing. It is all just way too much! They now believe that it is also in his esophagus....which I understand, is not good! So, I have been trying to just be here for my husband who could crumble at any moment! Please pray!!!!!

And second, we have been living off of the Lord for the past 4 months! Literally! He has had to send money to us in many different ways just so we can pay our bills. I had quite my very nice paying job to foster...and now I work at Target...which barely makes enough to pay 3/4 our mortgage(one months pay!!!) ! The stress has been unreal!!!!!! So.....I have decided that I am going back to school! I cannot live like this any longer! I need to be able to provide for my child...and if I am already spending so much time from sweet Eva...then I better get paid WELL for it!!! Sooooo...I am going to enroll in nursing school.

This should give me the flexibility I am looking for and way better pay! And since becoming a foster parent, I have become more comfortable with medical stuff! I am very excited....and nervous!! I am not totally sure if I can do this...but I think I just need to!!!!!!

I am also aching for another foster child!!!!! We did respite this week for a 6month old and a 15 month old for 4 days! It was GREAT!!! We have a 14 year old this weekend! Just don't know how this will work with school!!!

So much to think about.......pray for me!
Jemmers :)