Normalocity Killed the Cat!

**Disclaimer** No cats were harmed during the making of this post! We don't even have a cat!

I have a confession to make. I am comfortable where I am at. I like the feeling that we are a normal family. It feels as if we are finally where I have wanted to be for so long.

Why is this not a good thing?? Well,for starters...we are not a normal family! And that is a good thing. We are a foster home to many children...and hopefully to many more to come. The idea of adding a forever child to the mix frightens me. Changes my outlook a bit. Not that is should at all.

When we started this journey two years ago, hubby and I both agreed that we would do all we could to help those in need. And I think we have been doing that somewhat well. And I love it. But, my heart has changed just a tad. And it is so hard to explain and so hard to understand. But with the adoption of cutie pie, I am no longer just a foster mom. I am a mom!

So when we got two e-mails last night for 2 different babies who needed a home...I felt different. I was worried how it would effect my schedule. I underestimated how Cutie Pie would be able to handle having another baby taking up some of mommy's time. I selfishly thought of my loss of sleep...and what it would do to me...and not how these sweet children needed a home.

I promise you, I did snap out of it! But my longing for normalcy all those years seemed to have caught up with me. And what is normal anyways??

So, I am back from outer-space! And ready for whatever plan God has in store for this simple abnormal family!

Stay tuned....

Jemmers :)